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[alignmyheart]

 

 

 

 

Percival de Rolo You've reached Percy. [Text/Voice/Action]

 

 

 

 

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[alignmyheart]

You haven't done anything, Vax. Why do you think it's about you?

[Percival probably hasn't helped matters being the way that he is, but. They've settled a bit more, haven't they? Things are... better. He thought.]

[vaax]

you’ve given me no reason to think otherwise.

i’m grasping at fucking straws, percy. what’s keeping you from loving me fully? i won’t let you pull me around and play games with me.

[alignmyheart]

I'm not playing any bloody games, [he snaps.

He lets go of the earring and pushes his fingers through his hair, clutching tight for a moment. Percy exhales sharply before touching the earring again.]

What do you want from me, Vax?

[vaax]

[ it sure feels as though he is. vax'ildan has prepared to give percy everything he asks for, to love him fully, and all he's gotten in response is half-assed maybes and no real answers. ]

for you to answer my damn question. truthfully.

[alignmyheart]

I love you as I have loved you, Vax.

[and if that isn't what Vax wants... Percy doesn't know yet if he can or should offer more. Even if he might want to.. He thinks of Vex and guilt twists in his gut.]

[vaax]

[ there’s no reply for quite some time. when it does come, vax is quiet, and he sounds... tired. ]

yeah. i think you believe that. but i don’t think you know how to show me.

[ another pause, and now he sounds a little more resigned. ]

i think it would be best if we didn’t try for this anymore. i have feelings for you and being around you when you can’t return them hurts too much. i can’t anymore, percy.

[alignmyheart]

[had they been trying for something...? That is news to Percy. So, maybe, this is what needs to happen.]

The last thing I want is to hurt you, Vax'ildan.

[vaax]

[ vax laughs, a humorless barking laugh before he touches the earring again. ]

it’s too late for that. i hope you find whatever it is you’re looking for, even if you have to find it alone.

[alignmyheart]

I wasn't looking for anything.

[Maybe that will just make things worse, but Vax deserves his honesty here. Percy worries this means he has lost (again) Vax'ildan's trust and affection. Likely no less than he deserves.]

[vaax]

well there’s clearly something i’m not doing correctly or i wouldn’t feel like this.

please just leave me alone until i can stomach being near you again.

[alignmyheart]

[Well, that's a familiar sentiment. Percival managed it the last time, he will survive this time. And then, as now, he deserves the ire.]

Good night, Vax'ildan.

[He drops his hand from the earring. After a moment of consideration, he reaches up again to take it off and leaves it on his nightstand.]