[she takes a breath, leans against him just a little bit, and summons the courage such an act requires.]
i.
i just wish i could truly relax and feel secure with him, but i still feel like I'm out on the fringes, like...like there's so many things that he's still holding back from me even though I want to give him everything and I don't understand why.
I think the trouble is the time he's been here, [he says after a moment.] He's jumped on every opportunity he could, and that--things developed. Obviously. And I'm quite certain he's afraid of hurting you further.
[That doesn't necessarily excuse some of the things Vax has done - or hasn't done - and Percy doubts it will make Keyleth feel any better. But... Percy at least somewhat understands the circumstances.]
[it doesn't. Keyleth's forehead wrinkles, and she takes another drink with a huff of frustration.]
I told him I didn't care about that. It's hurt me more to be held at arms length like I'm--like--like the things that we've been through and all the work we did to get here meant nothing.
[sure, the idea of having to share isn't one she loves, but she's gotten used to it. she's made her peace with that, because what else could she do?]
Then hit him over the head with something heavy and tell him to stop being an ass.
[A faint smile flickers across his mouth. The same advice could be given to Vex and Percy wouldn't blame her for a moment. He bumps gently against Keyleth.]
Yes you could, I've seen you embrace violence, Keyleth. [Percy smiles, though the look softens.]
I think he deserves to hear it, darling. He cares about you, you can recover from a fight if one kicks up. Though I'm not sure he has a leg to stand on.
[Even as he says it, Percy doesn't know how sure he can be. But--but he wants to believe they will be. He knows that he will do whatever it takes to make things up to Vex, to remind her how deeply he loves her.
He finally relents and lets Keyleth have her drink.]
I've been an ass, I hurt her, and she's every right to be angry with me.
Yes I am, [he says with a dry smile.] You know it almost better than anyone. But it's sweet of you to say otherwise.
[He leans closer to brush a platonic kiss to Keyleth's cheek.]
We give the people we love the power to hurt us, and we trust that they won't. I abused that trust, regardless of the reason or circumstances. So it's up to me to--I don't know. Try to make clear just what Vex'ahlia means to me.
[He's definitely an ass for teasing her. But he wraps an arm around Keyleth to pull her against him, offering her some support and affection as another wave hits her.]
Maybe it would be best if we sit somewhere.
[It doesn't take too much doing to steer them towards a couch.]
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I'm asking you to be selfish. Flat out encouraging it.
[He can't do much just yet, but he wants to be here for her.]
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i.
i just wish i could truly relax and feel secure with him, but i still feel like I'm out on the fringes, like...like there's so many things that he's still holding back from me even though I want to give him everything and I don't understand why.
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[That doesn't necessarily excuse some of the things Vax has done - or hasn't done - and Percy doubts it will make Keyleth feel any better. But... Percy at least somewhat understands the circumstances.]
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I told him I didn't care about that. It's hurt me more to be held at arms length like I'm--like--like the things that we've been through and all the work we did to get here meant nothing.
[sure, the idea of having to share isn't one she loves, but she's gotten used to it. she's made her peace with that, because what else could she do?]
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[A faint smile flickers across his mouth. The same advice could be given to Vex and Percy wouldn't blame her for a moment. He bumps gently against Keyleth.]
Have you mustered the will to tell him all this?
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No! I could never!
...Not...exactly. I don't want to upset him, or have us fight. We're good at that, and...
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Yes you could, I've seen you embrace violence, Keyleth. [Percy smiles, though the look softens.]
I think he deserves to hear it, darling. He cares about you, you can recover from a fight if one kicks up. Though I'm not sure he has a leg to stand on.
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Yeah, maybe you're right. ...for now, though, I think I might need another drink.
[pause]
I'm glad you and Vexy are getting better. I want...wait. That's stupid, I'm not going to say that out loud. Drink, please.
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[He takes her glass so that he can refill it, but he's quite keen to know what Keyleth is holding back. And he is prepared to hold her drink hostage.]
What were you going to say, darling?
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[she makes grabby hands for the drink, but realizes, falters, frowns]
I...I always want you guys to be happy and work things out and live happily ever after, I guess. Because...I just do.
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[Even as he says it, Percy doesn't know how sure he can be. But--but he wants to believe they will be. He knows that he will do whatever it takes to make things up to Vex, to remind her how deeply he loves her.
He finally relents and lets Keyleth have her drink.]
I've been an ass, I hurt her, and she's every right to be angry with me.
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[she takes a long drink. the alcohol is making her feel sad and nostalgic, not that she'd admit it's already hitting her. must be dust in her eyes.]
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[Percy takes a drink from his glass, lingering for a moment.]
Denying her feelings is certainly not a way to move forward.
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well, no. I guess you're right.
you're not an ass, Percy.
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[He leans closer to brush a platonic kiss to Keyleth's cheek.]
We give the people we love the power to hurt us, and we trust that they won't. I abused that trust, regardless of the reason or circumstances. So it's up to me to--I don't know. Try to make clear just what Vex'ahlia means to me.
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not in this circumstance, I guess.
I...I think you will. I think that you're thinking about it--that you want to--says a lot.
[gods, why is she crying???]
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[He's definitely an ass for teasing her. But he wraps an arm around Keyleth to pull her against him, offering her some support and affection as another wave hits her.]
Maybe it would be best if we sit somewhere.
[It doesn't take too much doing to steer them towards a couch.]
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I don't even know why I'm crying??