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Percy de Rolo ([personal profile] alignmyheart) wrote2021-07-05 09:00 pm

for graviturgy




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[personal profile] graviturgy 2022-03-06 06:33 am (UTC)(link)
"I am curious to attend these shows," Essek proclaims easily, lending his voice to Keyleth and Pike's already apparent enthusiasm. "And willing to share a dance or two, if you are so inclined," he offers, the hint of a smile on his lips that more clearly reaches his eyes. Shaded as his face is by his hood, that smile is for Percival alone as he looks at him with unveiled fondness.

Essek isn't one for dancing, really, but in a less formal setting like this he doesn't mind participating. For the sake of sharing in something Percival enjoys, he minds even less. In fact, he acknowledges that he might even enjoy it.

As the area they walk through becomes more populated, those setting up for the festival or lingering nearby definitely take notice of them, and not in the way Essek has experienced before. It isn't just them, himself and Percival, that they are looking at. He hears whispers of Vox Machina, and if anything, people seem to be most excited by Trinket. Essek supposes he can't be offended; of all things to be upstaged by, a tame bear wearing a blue bow is at least unusual enough to be notable.

Still, he begins to appreciate for the first time what seeing this group walking the street here means to Whitestone's people. Not so very long ago, they quite literally saved this city. Essek, who was decidedly not part of that because he was busy causing a war that cost the lives of thousands of innocents, is glad to have his hood up. He finds he doesn't particularly want to be acknowledged with admiration at the moment. Let the rest of them have that, as it is well-deserved.
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[personal profile] graviturgy 2022-03-06 11:21 pm (UTC)(link)
Essek is grateful that the rest of the group either enjoys the attention, or is willing to shoulder it at least, both for his sake and Percival's.

"I understand," he says quietly. He squeezes Percy's arm where his hand is tucked into his elbow, sensing and empathizing with his discomfort. "Accepting recognition even for a commendable deed is difficult when you have also been a source of suffering for others." This is the case for him, at least. Each time one of the Nein reminded him that they could not have saved the world without him, he felt undeserving and guilty. "There are more people than I will ever know whose lives were shattered by my arrogance. Receiving praise for doing good after causing pain of that magnitude feels hollow at best."

He cannot speak for his husband, of course, but they have spoken enough of guilt to know that it weighs heavy on him, too. The specifics of the things they have done--or the things they feel responsible for--have not been discussed in detail, but that isn't necessary for him to know that he can relate. Even if he thinks Percival deserves to be acknowledged for freeing his people from tyrannical rule, he recognizes why this is complicated and painful for him.

"It is lucky that you have friends who do not mind accepting the brunt of it on your behalf."
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[personal profile] graviturgy 2022-03-07 12:59 am (UTC)(link)
That Percival opts not to offer Essek a way out of the dancing he's already promised to do is proof that he is an intelligent man. There is no conceivable way that Essek wouldn't be at least a bit slighted by it.

When he brings up his blushing, though, Essek has to fight not to blush again. Not that this is obvious; he does quite a good job of appearing aloof, elegantly arching a brow in an expression of mild contempt.

"You have never kissed me in public," he counters. He's never been kissed in public period. And while he doesn't say exactly that, it's implied. "I do not come from a culture where open displays of physical affection are common. I was simply caught off guard."

Never mind that the audience had been small, consisting of only a handful of Percival's closest friends. Kissing, in Essek's experience, happens behind closed doors--or occasionally in hallway alcoves, when strategically necessary. But even that was meant to look clandestine.
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[personal profile] graviturgy 2022-03-07 02:09 am (UTC)(link)
"Did I say that?" Essek's tone remains light and pleasant, perhaps even edging into playful. His eyes are bright, focused intently on his husband's face. "Perhaps not frequently, but it would be acceptable from time to time."

He does have to glance away then, lest his attempt to seem unaffected be revealed for the sham that it is. He's never had a conversation remotely like this before, outlining when and if it would be acceptable to kiss him in front of others. Certainly, he wouldn't have expected before now that he would allow it at all, even conditionally. Even more surprising still is that he'd found it a little thrilling.

While it is true that Kryn culture is more structured and reserved than most human ones, Essek himself is on the more reserved end of even that spectrum. He admits, "It is not considered uncouth for long-term partners to occasionally share a kiss in public, but I am..." Perhaps the best indicator that he is not as cool as he seems is the way his fingers flex against Percy's arm. "I have always been very private, both as a personal preference and a necessity of my station."
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[personal profile] graviturgy 2022-03-07 03:16 am (UTC)(link)
It is good that Percival finds it so charming, because Essek can't stop his skin from heating again now as his husband's lips press to his cheek this time. While it is chaste, it is still far more open affection than he is used to, especially after that talk. But Essek tries not to acknowledge this, violet eyes darting down and away as Percy suggests a short walk and looking for a few more presents.

"Of course," he agrees, catching his breath and attempting to restore a bit of poise. There is some uncertainty when he asks, "Should I have prepared gifts for your friends? I am satisfied with what I have found for yourself and Cassandra, but I had not thought to procure any others."

He wouldn't wish to slight them, but he's genuinely not sure of the rules of Winter's Crest gifting.
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[personal profile] graviturgy 2022-03-07 04:11 am (UTC)(link)
"I have some experience with expensive but elegant," Essek says wryly, lips quirking as he glances up at his husband, cheeks still faintly flushed. "Let us see what we can find. I would like to give something to each of them, if possible, so I would appreciate your advice."

Why not? It seems like it would please Percival if he learned about his friends, and giving gifts as gesture of good will--and to ingratiate one to the recipient--is a language Essek is very familiar with.

He's sure he can assist with finding something for Cassandra, at the very least. Between council meetings and family dinners, Essek has come to rather like his sister-in-law.
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[personal profile] graviturgy 2022-03-07 08:33 pm (UTC)(link)
It has to be the earrings. Essek knows little about quivers, but plenty about jewelry, so the latter feels slightly more personal. He's surprised and pleased to find even such a small item as the shawl pin made from the distinctive dark purple wood that only grows in Xhorhas. The significance alone makes the purchase entirely worthwhile.

Essek isn't looking for himself, but there is plenty he is charmed by, mostly little things with distinctly local significance. He compliments craftsmen and artisans on their wares, politely pulling his hood back so that they can see him when he speaks to them, even if it means a slight strain on his eyes. Though he has been here more than six months, this is the first time he has interacted so directly with Whitestone's public. Their surprise and curiosity about him is plain to see. Though he detects a little wariness at times, there is no hostility. The castle staff has become used to him by now, but it is apparent that the majority of Whitestone still sees him as a novelty. With Percival they are respectful, but clearly more familiar with his presence.

Still, this is a start. Perhaps the next time they will find him a little more familiar, too.

When their shopping is done, Essek stops just to look up at the Sun Tree, his arm still threaded through Percy's. The lights among the leaves remind him of the tree growing up through the Mighty Nein's home in Rosohna, sustained by the bottled sunlight strung through its branches by the clerics. Both the memory and the sight before him bring a faint smile to his lips.
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[personal profile] graviturgy 2022-03-08 02:24 am (UTC)(link)
There's a pleasant little flutter in his stomach when Percival's arm curls around his waist. Essek turns his body toward him, casting his face half in shadow and half in warm golden light. "I was the youngest Shadowhand in my nation's history," he quips, amused. "Making smalltalk is the least of my skills."

He knows he's playing it off lightly, so he adds, voice softening, "I am grateful that you wish me to be a part of it. I hope to prove more trustworthy in this role than my last."

Perhaps that is setting the bar too low. If he can refrain from stealing any powerful arcane artifacts of unmatched religious and cultural significance for the sake of personal study, he'll have surpassed that goal.

Letting himself relax against his husband, he agrees quietly, "As am I. This is the first holiday I have looked forward to in a very long time." Catching Percival's eye, Essek surprises himself by leaning up to press a short kiss to his cheek, concealed by his hood. "The first of many, I am certain."
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[personal profile] graviturgy 2022-03-08 04:08 am (UTC)(link)
"I think I will be able to handle all of that," Essek assures with a quirk of his lips. "It sounds like fun." And he hasn't experienced a fun holiday since he was a child--or since Verin was a child, at least. Thinking of that makes him wish, oddly, that Verin were here to experience this too. He would probably enjoy it. And this is, according to Percival, a holiday for family.

It will be good to wait out the next few hours at the castle, though, while the sun is still up. When they come back down to the city later, it won't be a problem for him any longer.

"I am ready to return when you are," he offers. "Shall we choose our attire for the evening together?" They're already matching quite well without trying, but Essek would enjoy coordinating. He's already decided he'll wear the mantle Percival gave him. It is a gorgeous piece, and a significant one to him. If there was ever a time to wear the crest of his new family, this must be it.
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[personal profile] graviturgy 2022-03-08 04:06 pm (UTC)(link)
"Of course," he says lightly, with a confidence that implies being able to cast such high-level magic twice in one day is a trivial thing. Far from it. This will be his limit for especially powerful spells today, unless he is going to trance before they return in the evening. He could, but on this occasion he would prefer to spend that time with his husband, as he suggests.

Essek raises a hand between them and skates his fingertips along Percy's jaw with a gentle touch. His eyes soften. "I do not wish to seclude myself today. I would like nothing more than to remain with you."

With how fondly Percival had spoken of Winter's Crest, Essek has already decided to do everything in his power to make their first together perfect. It's what his husband deserves.