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Percy de Rolo ([personal profile] alignmyheart) wrote2021-07-05 09:00 pm

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[personal profile] graviturgy 2021-07-26 04:19 am (UTC)(link)
The length of time between his posed question and the answer does nothing to assure Essek of its authenticity. His hand moves gradually from Percy's shoulder to his back as his touch becomes firmer, hoping to provide some reassurance. With a soflty-spoken word he honors the request for light, and the room is lit in a steady pale blue glow.

"I gathered as much, k'allis," he says, keeping his voice low and soothing. The Undercommon word for dear one is nothing he hasn't spoken before in Common, though somehow it feels weightier in his own language. "It has been a long time since I have dreamed, but I recall how it felt to wake from a nightmare."

Is trying to relate an awkward thing to do? Perhaps Percival would simply prefer to drop the subject entirely. But it's equally possible that he'll find talking to be soothing. Essek quickly discovers that more than fearing crossing a line or coming on too strong, he wants to help his clearly shaken husband. How could he not, when he's come to care about Percival as much as he has?

"Humans cannot trance, of course, but I could guide you in a meditative breathing exercise that might prove calming enough to ensure a more restful sleep," he offers. "This was done for me in my youth."
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[personal profile] graviturgy 2021-07-26 05:12 am (UTC)(link)
Essek's expression is one of sympathy, but also resolve. As soon as Percy agrees to his suggestion, he gives a curt nod. "Good. Listen to me, then." He has no issue taking the lead here, authoritative, but gently so. It seems to him that in this state, Percival could use someone telling him what he should do.

He very deliberately has not inquired as to the subject of the bad dream; best to let that fade away, and instead concentrate on what might be done to mitigate the symptoms of his husband's apparently regular restless sleep. Perhaps this will be a lesson he can take forward with him. Essek's hand rubs down and up Percy's back once before he pulls away, scooting toward the head of the bed. With his back to the headboard, he sits cross-legged and pulls a pillow into his lap.

"You will lay on your back with your head here." A hand gives the pillow a single sharp pat. It's clearly an instruction rather than a suggestion, which Essek hopes cuts through the possibly awkward novelty of this new level of intimacy. "Hands folded on your chest, eyes closed. You should attempt to concentrate on my voice and your breathing. Nothing else."
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[personal profile] graviturgy 2021-07-27 02:31 am (UTC)(link)
The proximity is no accident, and the intimacy that comes with it is meant to be comforting. As soon as Percy is settled, Essek's hands come to rest on his shoulders, pressing down lightly.

It occurs to him as he looks down at the man settled in his lap that this is the first time he's seen Percival so closely without his glasses, let alone disheveled in bed after a less than pleasant dream. It's an incredibly vulnerable state to be in around anyone, Essek recognizes, which makes the trust Percy is putting in him all the more poignant.

"If you find your thoughts wandering, say so. I will assist you," he says simply. "Now, follow my instructions."

Essek retains that same soft, authoritative tone as he begins to lead Percy in a breathing exercise, instructing him on when and how much to breathe in, how long to hold, and when to release. He counts out loud, occasionally touching the center of Percy's chest to feel his chest expanding. It's a lot of deep breaths and slow exhaling, as might be expected, but the pattern isn't just one continuous cycle.

"Hold until it feels natural to release. Good. Now inhale--five, four, three, two, one."
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[personal profile] graviturgy 2021-08-03 04:39 pm (UTC)(link)
Notably, Essek has not withdrawn his hand from its place against Percy's sternum since his husband's fingers brushed it. It remains there, steadying, as the other rests on his shoulder. It makes Percy's momentary distraction all the more obvious, when his chest doesn't rise beneath his touch with a five-count inhale as he'd expected it to. The muttered apology comes a moment later.

"It's fine," Essek assures quietly, taking stock of the man laid out in front of him. His weight rests heavily between the bed and Essek's lap, no obvious tension in his limbs. With care, Essek lifts the hand from his shoulder to brush his fingertips lightly across his forehead, smoothing back strands of hair still stuck to his skin with cold sweat. "How are you feeling? You seem more relaxed." Or at least not obviously agitated, as he had been before. It's an improvement.
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[personal profile] graviturgy 2021-08-03 11:50 pm (UTC)(link)
Though Essek permits Percy sit up, of course, hands sliding away as he moves, he isn't entirely convinced that his husband's condition has improved to his satisfaction. While he isn't actively panicking any longer, he looks...exhausted. And not in a way that seems conducive to sleep. Perhaps part of it is merely the pale blue light further washing out a already pale man. But Essek knows how to read people, and Percy seems...resigned. To more poor rest, perhaps, but not wanting to burden his spouse further. Essek can't allow that.

"Percival," he murmurs, concern evident in his tone. His brow has furrowed, and he reaches for Percy's nearest hand to hold it between his own. "Is there something else you need? You have only to ask."

There is a tightness in his chest, a twist of worry and affection, that makes him bold. "I want to help you."
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[personal profile] graviturgy 2021-08-04 12:44 am (UTC)(link)
It is too dark in the room still for Percival to see his blush, Essek concludes as his hand is released. He can feel the heat in his own face, can feel the lingering brush of Percival's lips still against his knuckles. He flexes his fingers and folds them together with his other hand, idly allowing his own thumb to brush over the same spot.

Oh, he's in trouble, isn't he?

"Of course," he confirms quickly, relieved that Percy hasn't dismissed him. "That is no imposition." He dares to inch a little closer toward the center of the bed, moving away from the pillows and the headboard. "Make yourself comfortable. I will...arrange myself accordingly."
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[personal profile] graviturgy 2021-08-04 03:43 am (UTC)(link)
The morning is enjoyable, despite the fact that he has to hide beneath his parasol for most of it. Learning about Emon firsthand is important, and doing so with Percival as his guide is...nice. Though Essek would never say so, it feels almost like a date, or what he imagines a date must be like, at least. He's never really been on one before, so his assessment could very well be off the mark. But it feels that way even despite Percival's friend, the charming enchanter Shaun Gilmore, flirting ridiculously with him practically the entire time they're in his shop. Walking along the waterfront, through the marketplace, and seeing the city's prominent sights together has a certain romance about it, which puts Essek in a fine mood. It's unfortunate that their day has to be interrupted for the sake of this party, and he expresses as much with genuine reluctance.

There is something calming about the ritual of getting ready, however, even as he shares space with Percival. Essek dresses in his usual dark colors, this time veering toward a blue-black in an intentional effort to match his husband's color scheme. The cut of his clothing, even the layers that won't be most apparent, is precise and sharp, his boots are shined, and he styles his hair into a neat coif with a casting of Prestidigitation. The jewelry he chooses is understated, but elegant in its simplicity; silver, of course, pointed caps for the tips of his ears, delicate chains lacing down to connect with a duo of smooth white pearls dangling from each lobe. Practical as well as stylish; he could use them to cast Fortune's Favor in a pinch.

Standing in front of a mirror, he sees Percy approach over his shoulder and turns to meet him, gaze darting curiously to the fabric draped over his arm. With light steps, Essek follows him to the end of the bed to see it laid out. Once he realizes what it is, the question he'd been about to ask dies on his tongue.

Reverently, Essek brushes his fingers over the embroidered crest, feeling the quality of the craftsmanship and the fabric itself. The alteration from the usual gold to his preferred silver shows real consideration. The thought of this cloak draped over his shoulders, clearly displaying his connection to Whitestone and the de Rolo family, is genuinely touching in a way Essek could not have anticipated. The sense of belonging and acceptance that it conjures fills his heart. This is no paltry gift.

"Percival...this is incredible." His words are hushed. "You had it made for me?"
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[personal profile] graviturgy 2021-08-04 05:42 am (UTC)(link)
Percival's words of support and acceptance strike a tender place that Essek has been carefully guarding for most of his life; his desire to belong, to be welcomed, to feel like he is doing something meaningful. In the Dynasty, among his own people, the son of one of the three most powerful women in Xhorhas, Essek had always felt alone, even as he was lauded for his talent for dunamancy and rose through the ranks to become Shadowhand at an unprecedented young age. His brother was his only solace, and eventually Essek pushed even him away,as his ideas and research become more dangerous and heretical.

His isolation, caused by the oppressive expectation of his position in Kryn society and further self-imposed as he felt out of place among his peers, has made him the man he is today: cold, distant, driven, and calculating, with a desire for knowledge stronger than any moral compass he may ever have possessed. Or at least, that was the man he had been before the Mighty Nein. The love and acceptance and forgiveness shown to him by his first ever true friends have changed him irrevocably. He can acknowledge, even in this moment, that he would not be here feeling this rush of powerful emotion for Percival if it weren't for the way they had successfully thawed his heart first.

When his husband takes his hand and raises it to his lips Essek is immediately reminded of the night before. They haven't talked about it, as is Percival's right, but the echo of it and the vulnerability Percy had trusted him with is not lost on him. That the kiss is pressed deliberately over his ring is another plain layer of meaning, and Essek feels a rare sense of certainty. First, the he is exactly where he should be, and second, that he has unexpectedly fallen in love with the man he married.

"I would like nothing more." His voice remains steady only due to a literal century of practice. He holds Percy's gaze, steeling himself. "But in a moment, please."

Percival has withdrawn his hand behind his back, but Essek steps closer to negate the space between them again. Slowly and carefully, wary with every movement of overstepping, he slips his arms around Percy's torso and tucks his face between his collar and his shoulder, initiating a gentle, cautious embrace. "Thank you, k'allis," he murmurs. "This means more to me than you can possibly know."
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[personal profile] graviturgy 2021-08-04 06:54 am (UTC)(link)
Essek's chest still feels full enough to strain his breathing slightly when they part again, but it's an overwhelmingly good feeling. He thinks he has only been held that way once or twice before in his life, and he already longs to feel those arms secure and comforting around him again.

"I think we have no other choice," Essek declares with a coy smirk. "Especially as my husband looks so dashing tonight."

With that, he turns his back to Percival to allow him to drape the dark blue mantle over his shoulders. The mantle of the Shadowhand always felt so heavy, even after he got used to it. The weight was, eventually, comforting, as was the way his cloak concealed him completely, neck to toe. But this cloak is open enough in the front to show the layers beneath, and the weight of it is not nearly so oppressive. As Percival secures it for him, Essek raises his hands to the clasp around his collar, allowing his fingers to brush over Percy's. He can still see the two of them in the mirror; together, they look perfectly matched.
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[personal profile] graviturgy 2021-08-04 07:33 pm (UTC)(link)
Essek floats, of course. Hovering at his usual height makes him nearly as tall as his husband. He isn't about to change his habits for these people, and part of him takes a vicious sort of pleasure in it, knowing that even the arcane minds among them will more than likely have no idea how he's doing it--if they notice at all, beneath the long, rich mantle.

As they're announced his grip tightens every so slightly where his hand rests on Percival's arm. Essek Thelyss de Rolo. The full effect is quite different now than when he'd heard it for the first (and last) time at their wedding. It feels more suited to him. He glances over just in time to catch the ghost of a smirk on Percival's mouth before he turns his attention back to the room at the large. There's a faint shiver at the near brush of lips against his ear and the low pitch of his husband's voice, but nothing obvious. Essek has ever mask and veneer firmly in place, carrying himself effortlessly with the Shadowhand's haughty poise.

There is only a moment to wonder about the earring before he's slipped on himself. Clutching it, his hand moves at his side, tracing subtle glyphs as he murmurs the arcane words for Identify. As the spell takes hold, Essek's expression shifts from curious to impressed.

"Clever."

He spares a smirk for Percy as he secures the earring among his own, hardly out of place. Essek can feel the weight of others' scrutiny on them as they pass among the other party-goers, but that is hardly a new sensation. He makes no move to disengage his arm from Percival's, in no rush to separate any sooner than they have to.

"I presume we must greet the hosts first," he murmurs. It certainly seems like Percy knows where he's going. The confidence he radiates in this setting is striking, and if Essek is being honest with himself, attractive.
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[personal profile] graviturgy 2021-08-04 11:09 pm (UTC)(link)
This is not, of course, the first time Essek has met Allura Vysoren. Incidentally, the two of them have worked together in the past in a sense; when Allura appeared at the Lucid Bastion, a neutral third party advocating for a ceasefire, Essek had joined her in convincing the Bright Queen to halt the assault on Rexxentrum. Essek recalls the tense atmosphere in the throne room that day, the Bright Queen's desire for blood only temporarily stayed through the joint effort of Allura's argument, Essek's confirmation of the truth of her words, and both invoking the name of the Mighty Nein.

Essek is equally well aware that it is likely Allura's intervention on behalf of the Council that had opened the doorway for his union with Percival. Privately, he has to be grateful to her; if it were not for his useful exile to Whitestone, he would likely be dead or pursued for the rest of his life.

After Percy has been greeted warmly and Essek introduced to Allura's wife, Allura welcomes him and expresses that it is a genuine pleasure to see him again, to Essek's great relief. That she calls him Shadowhand in the process only stings a little.

"My former title," he corrects regretfully. "Unfortunately, I cannot fulfill such an integral role from a continent away. But I have my duties now in Whitestone toward which I have dedicated my full attention. Perhaps Percival has mentioned--"

It is easy, from there, to steer the conversation toward his new position on Whitestone's Council as their own arcane advisor, and, inevitably, the matter of their marriage in general. Though he genuinely likes Allura, he can tell that her wife is scrutinizing him, and speaking with two of Percival's close friends about their relationship and what they intend to make of it together is more than a little intimidating. Essek keeps his arm threaded through Percival's like a lifeline.

Unsurprisingly, it is Lady Kima who asks point-blank what he thinks of Percy in a way that reminds Essek so staunchly of Beauregard that he almost feels homesick for a moment. Thankfully it passes quickly, because he has mere seconds to craft a convincing and truthful response to an increasingly complicated question.

"I have grown quite fond of him," he decides on, with a flicker of a smile and a quick glance toward Percy. It is honest, but not dramatic. "He is a kind, intelligent, and dedicated man who cares about his home and his people. Working with him has already proven enjoyable and fruitful. I think that we are well suited to one another."
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[personal profile] graviturgy 2021-08-05 12:41 am (UTC)(link)
Despite Percival's seeming propensity for kissing his hands, something that Essek would never complain about, his parting kiss as he leaves to speak with another member of the council is still unexpected. Essek stares after him for a moment, watching his husband's back as he weaves through the crowd. His jacket really does highlight the shape of his shoulders very well.

"You do like him," Lady Kima declares slyly, as though Essek had not just said something much to that effect. But it brings him back to himself and reminds him of the conversation he is supposed to be involved in.

"Yes," he agrees simply, because that seems to be the right thing. "I do."

If he had his way, he would spend the rest of the party talking to Allura. She's interesting, knowledgeable, and he knows for certain that she thinks he belongs here, which is more than he can say for anyone else. But alas, she has others to converse with, and cannot spend her evening discussing magic with him, though she does promise another meeting in a less formal setting. Essek hates parties. At least in Dynasty, he was so well known that he never had to look for anyone to speak with; other would come to him, clamoring for his attention and perhaps a little favor. Irritating, to be sure, but it meant that he had power, which in turn opened up further opportunities.

Before she leaves him entirely, Allura imparts an absolutely crucial bit of wisdom: she lays a hand on his shoulder and leans close enough to speak undetected. "So that you are aware: there are emissaries of the Empire here."

Essek certainly doesn't need to be told why that may prove a problem for him. They could confront him directly, they could spread their malicious misinformation to those he will have to see and work with here, ruining his reputation before he can get a handle on it, or even worse--

"Who?"

Allura leans back, brow furrowing. "Astrid Beck, the new Archmage of Civil Influence, and a few attachés from Dwendal's court. She asked to be put on the guest list last minute. I'll admit that I don't know much about her yet."

Immediately Essek feels his blood run cold. It's because of him. What other reason does the Archmage of Civil Influence, a former Volstrucker, have to suddenly attend a soiree in Tal'Dorei? It isn't exactly her scene. After a week spent at a cautious distance in the Blooming Grove, she would recognize him very well, and he has no doubt that she is aware of the full scope of his crimes, and what a danger he is as a loose end. Which isn't even touching on the awkward circumstance of her being the former lover of his almost--whatever he and Caleb almost were--

His fear and trepidation must somehow register on his face, because he feels Allura squeeze his elbow, her expression sympathetic. "I'll do what I can," she promises him. "She hasn't asked about you, if that is any consolation."

It isn't. Of course she wouldn't ask.

"Thank you," he manages to say, tightly. "The warning is very much appreciated." He and Allura separate after that, and Essek dedicates himself to locating two people: his husband, and Astrid Beck.
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[personal profile] graviturgy 2021-08-05 01:54 am (UTC)(link)
Quickly enough, Essek is successful in locating both of his queries: Percival is closer, in a circle that includes--to Essek's chagrin--at least two people wearing the owl crest of the Dwendalian Empire. Astrid, meanwhile, is almost clear across the room, now speaking with Allura herself. She is wearing what is probably the simplest dress in the room, Essek notes, though the lack of sleeves and the low neckline does nothing to conceal the multitude of visible scars on her body, nor the mazelike tattoos that snake up her arms. She's certainly not making any effort to seem like her background is anything but what it is. Interesting.

He makes for Percival first, meaning to at least advise him of his own wariness, when he overhears the tail end of the conversation in his husband's circle. Honestly, what the Dwendalian spouts is nothing Essek hasn't heard before, and he isn't especially ruffled by it, expecting as much from those of the Empire as a matter of course. But watching Percival snap to his defense without missing a beat, lethal and efficient and cuttingly haughty--now that is something special.

Essek hovers back for a few moments longer just to let the shame and embarrassment really sink in before he approaches, smoothing sliding his hand into the crook of Percy's elbow. "You look bored, k'allis," he says, inviting and coy. He can't keep the smirk from his lips as he very deliberately looks at no one else, as though they may as well not be there. "Have you missed me that much?"

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